Another nap time. Baby dosing away, me scrolling through another triggering article. All of a sudden all the machinery in the house goes clunk and seconds later starts up again. She startles awake and starts her wailing. She remembers that her mouth is sore. She is disgruntled for being put down on the floor for a nappy change. Nothing is going right.
My head talk repeatedly says no to the doctor in the labour room. Telling him to go away. He left from my personal space over 8 months ago.
I sit at the laptop and spray Rescue Remedy into my mouth.
I juggle baby from breast to upright to breast again, who is still wailing,
As I'm already at the laptop I search for a meditation I found posted on Facebook a few months ago. And the search engine also gave me a similar, few minutes longer one as well. Baby finally began to dose away at the beginning of the second video.
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