Day 41 - Assigning Values

For the dino sketches to be viable, I need to assign value to them. It requires me to convert everything I put into them into money count. Receiving decided amounts will lead to validating of my self-worth and also my works.

The most straightforward one is: what is my hourly value? I have some idea of what my physical labour industry rates were from the nurseries.

What value do I put on my education, both formal and informal, where I learned art?

What value do I put on the extra work, is research time on par with drawing time, or at a different calculation?

Do the characters have an intrinsic value, not necessarily at a time conversion?

Will the value change again once I move away from pen and pencils to computer graphics?

Do I include cost of materials - paper and pen for now, but perhaps later other mediums?

Question I must ask the client is, are the characters a stand-alone or active in a scene? Background details will increase time spent doing them.

I found these tapping from Jen Ward's Jenuine Healing Sharing Circle to be relevant to the topic:

"I make space in the world for all souls to be loved and validated; in all moments"
"I remove all blockages to all souls being loved and validated; in all moments"
"I stretch the worlds capacity to love and validate all souls; in all moments"
"I make space in the world for ignorance and prejudice to be abolished; in all moments"
"I remove all blockages to ignorance and prejudice being abolished; in all moments"
"I stretch the worlds capacity to abolish ignorance and prejudice; in all moments"
"I make space in the world for all forms of abundance to be as valued as much as money; in all moments"
"I remove all blockages to all forms of abundance being as valued as money; in all moments"
"I stretch the worlds capacity to value all forms of abundance as much as money; in all moments"
"I make space in the world for nature to be loved and cultivated; in all moments"
"I remove all blockages to nature to be loved and cultivated; in all moments"
"I stretch the worlds capacity to love and cultivate Nature; in all moments"
"I make space in the world for ignorance and prejudice to be abolished; in all moments"

Day 40 - Story Time

Sometimes I do EFT with baby. I read the sentences out loud, just like I would a picture book. Or show her where I am tapping.

Sometimes I read articles out loud from the phone or the computer screen. If I do, I try to keep topics on the lighter side, or relevant like child-rearing.

Today we read a few pages of Louise Hay's You Can Heal Your Life. It's fun to put intonations on quotes like "What we think about ourselves becomes truth for us," "Love is everywhere, and I am loving and lovable," and "We must be willing to begin to learn to love ourselves." It is especially entertaining to read them while gauging her chattering and flailing.

I wonder if I can get some mindfulness picture books in the near future that she can read for herself one day?

Day 28 - Headache

Headache slowly increased intensity as the hours went by. I woke up with it, still not entirely recovering from yesterday's  interruption. Flashbacks and negative self-talk did their usual things, and I eventually curled up and whimpered in pain and defeat.

Throughout the day, I tried many things:

- Drinking water
- Drinking coffee
- Rescue Remedy
- Massage
- Bath
- Stretching
- Taking magnesium tablets
- Taking painkiller tablets
- Ice pack on my neck
- Attempted nap with baby
- De-armouring visualisation
- EFT
- Sending love and validation to inner 'mean girl'
- St John's Wart tincture

As baby came around to being tired enough for nap attempt #2, I resorted to taking 2nd lot of pain killers. I also applied topically some peppermint essential oil*, on my temples, forehead, back of the neck, and lower back. This time it didn't take long before both of us were asleep.

2 hours later we woke up much rested. Tension subsided from level 8 to 2. I took painkillers round #3, and eft for acceptance.



*Using essential oils with infants is discouraged, please consult an expert if you wish to use it with and for children.

Day 20 - Releasing "Not Belonging"

If someone asked for a technique, it's a round-about way of reminding me to do them as well.

I made some time this afternoon to do these tapping, written by Jen Ward of Jenuine Healing. It has been a while since I had done one of her marathon tapping. Statements are said out loud 4 times; 3 while tapping the top of the head and once on the heart. It's a supercharged version of EFT.

"I release the trauma of being grounded on Earth; in all moments."
"I release resenting Earth; in all moments."
"I release feeling like an alien on Earth; in all moments."
"I release the belief that I don't belong on Earth; in all moments."
"I release the trauma of being abandoned on Earth; in all moments."
"I release rejecting Earth; in all moments."
"I release waiting to be saved; in all moments."
"I release hating my Earth body; in all moments."
"I release rejecting my Earth body; in all moments."
"I release the trauma of losing my tail; in all moments."
"I release mourning my tail; in all moments."
"I release having trouble balancing without my tail; in all moments."
"I release feeling like a stranger to humans; in all moments."
"I release the inability to interact with humans; in all moments."
"I release feeling suffocated in this human body; in all moments."
"I release the trauma of losing my wings; in all moments."
"I release grounding myself; in all moments."
"I declare myself a surrogate for humanity in doing these taps; in all moments."
"I release the belief that I am limited to the human body; in all moments."
"I release negating all but the physical interaction; in all moments."
"I release rejecting the reality of my imagination; in all moments."
"I release being locked down in the physical body; in all moments."
"I release rejecting my intangible self; in all moments."
"I release vacillating between vulnerability and superiority in the physical body; in all moments."
"I release denying my true self; in all moments."
"I release the primal need to conquer; in all moments."
"I release the belief that humans are superior to other species; in all moments."
"I release using superiority as a form of denial; in all moments."
"I release the fear of my own vulnerability; in all moments."
"I remove all the self-induced prophecy of the negative force; in all moments."
"I release feeling vulnerable in energy to a negative force; in all moments."
"I release manifesting a negative force; in all moments."
"I withdraw all my energy from anything negative that I have created; in all moments."
"I collapse and dissolve all negative creations that I have created; in all moments."
"I withdraw all my energy from all others' negative creations that I have supported; in all moments."
"I collapse and dissolve the wing that I have supported in all others' negative creations; in all moments."
"I remove all vivaxes between myself and the human body; in all moments."
"I remove all vivaxes between myself and physical existence; in all moments."
"I release being led around by the nose by physical existence; in all moments."
"I remove all tentacles between myself and physical existence; in all moments."
"I remove the claws of physical existence from my beingness; in all moments."
"I release being enslaved to physical existence; in all moments."
"I release being diminished by physical existence; in all moments."
"I remove all programming and conditioning that physical existence has put on me; in all moments."
"I remove all engrams that physical existence has put on me; in all moments."
"I send all energy matrices into the light that trap me in physical existence; in all moments."
"I send all energy matrices into the light that prevent me from seeing my omniscience; in all moments."
"I send all energy matrices into the light that prevent me from knowing my omnipotence; in all moments."
"I send all energy matrices into the light that prevent my from being omnipresent; in all moments."
"I recant all vows and agreements between myself and physical existence; in all moments."
"I remove all curses between myself and physical existence; in all moments."
"I remove all blessings between myself and physical existence, in all moments."
"I sever all strings and cords and wires between myself and physical existence; in all moments."
"I dissolve all karmic ties between myself and physical existence; in all moments."
"I withdraw all my energy from physical existence; in all moments."
"I strip all illusion off of physical existence; in all moments."
"I remove all masks, walls, and armor from physical existence; in all moments."
"I remove all the pain, burden, and limitations that physical existence has put on me; in all moments."
"I remove all the pain, burden, and limitations that I have put on all others due to physical existence; in all moments."
"I remove all the fear, futility, helplessness, and unworthiness that physical existence has put on me; in all moments."
"I remove all the fear, futility, helplessness, and unworthiness that I have put on all others due to physical existence; in all moments."
"I remove the illusion of separateness that physical existence has put on me; in all moments."
"I remove the illusion of separateness that I have put on all others due to physical existence; in all moments."
"I take back all the joy, love, abundance, freedom, health, and wholeness that physical existence has taken from me; in all moments."
"I give back to all others' all the joy, love, abundance, freedom, health, and wholeness that I have taken from them due to physical existence; in all moments."
"I release resonating with physical existence, in all moments."
"I release emanating with physical existence; in all moments."
"I strip off all illusion that physical existence has put on me; in all moments."
"I strip off all illusion that I have put on all others due to physical existence; in all moments."
"I remove all the masks, walls, and armor that physical existence has put on me; in all moments."
"I remove all masks, walls, and armor that I have put on all others due to physical existence; in all moments."
"I extract all of physical existence from my sound frequency; in all moments."
"I extract all of physical existence from my light emanation; in all moments."
"I shift my paradigm from physical existence to joy, love, abundance, freedom, empowerment, and wholeness; in all moments."
"I shift humanity's paradigm from physical existence to joy, love, abundance, freedom, empowerment, and wholeness; in all moments."
"I transcend physical existence, in all moments."
"Humanity transcends physical existence; in all moments."
"I am centered and empowered in joy, love, abundance, freedom, health, and wholeness; in all moments."
"Humanity is centered and empowered in joy, love, abundance, freedom, health, and wholeness; in all moments."
"I resonate and emanate joy, love, abundance, freedom, health, and wholeness within myself and to all others; in all moments."
"Humanity resonates, emanates, and is interconnected in joy, love, abundance, freedom, health, and wholeness; in all moments."