Day 112 - Pacman Therapy

Felt much better today, and used yesterday's crazy as an inspiration for this one

Day 96 - Tree of Life Circles

I started this this morning in Fireworks. Moving circles around and trying to figure out what the pattern was. Once I got that, it was moving the objects around 1 pixel this way, 1 pixel that way, until they were in a formation I was happy with.

I must say it would have been easier with a sturdy compass...

Day 92 - Onward With Images

Having tidied up the computer files I felt very motivated today to get along with the 'I am enough' series. So much so I got started on 3. Only 32 more to go.

Day 18 I am enough 100 days.

Day 80 - Socialising

It was a socialising day today, so it felt like I had not ticked anything off on my 100 actions list. However, it did achieve a minor de-cluttering by passing on the Japanese books. It was also an opportunity to be open about my mental health journey. And of course to use Japanese, and some semblance of practicing goals starting to form.

I had a dose of feel-good from a gifting theme day. This was one of the quotes from a reading:

"To be truthful your comfort zone never really existed, it was simply an illusion created by self to keep you feeling safe and small."

I also received a call to action from another reading, which was interesting considering I had an 'off' day of sorts from creating content. Also it was a reminder that I will be required to take big actions towards publishing my works.

On the home front, this is now visible in the dining room at baby's eye level.

 I am perfectly enough day #5

Day 79 - Abundance

Today I was contemplating abundance. This too, was easy to give thanks to all the stuff I have, the ability to cull and give away, and the space I have to store or have on display around the house. Give thanks to the abundance of water from last two days of rain, and the abundance of sunshine all day today. That I have enough to share with baby for her growth and well-being. That I have enough for my happiness.

3 minutes to midday, I finished my drawing task for today, which was an amazing feeling. Knowing I finished for the day I was able to nap with baby guilt-free in the afternoon.

Day #4 of 'I am perfectly enough.' I shared the concept with the Peach Tree mums and it looks like I have 'perfectly enough' buddies with me for the next few months.

Abundance has many forms and exploring them is great fun!

Day 78 - Joy

Today's focus was JOY. This one was easy to list what brought me joy. I also laughed a lot today, was productive with my drawings (did two!), had an enjoyable lunch with baby, and had the opportunity to Skype with my father.

I read a lot of other people's visualisation - interestingly most of the their happy places were by the sea. For the 'waves to wash away their worries.'

Lastly, I washed my hair tonight. Small gesture perhaps, but also an accomplishment to have my own 'washing away my worries' time.

Day #3 of seeing 'I am perfectly enough' on my phone.

Day 46 - Diverting from Global Dramas (With Art, of Course)

I went to bed last night with this thought, as it one of the last things to have read.

Tuesday 24 November 2015
"Not until we are lost do we begin to find ourselves" Thoreau.
Tomorrow's Full Frost Moon in Gemini is a close encounter of the 3rd kind moment. It is broadcasting on multiple radio frequencies, some too etheric to hear, others coming in and our of your awareness like voices from the Tower of Babel. This Moon is speaking in tongues, in visions, in ancient languages you barely remember and in the codes of the far future. With the Sun aligned with Saturn, Mercury, Neptune and Nessus; the Moon with Jupiter and the Node of Fate and Venus on the Uranus/Pluto square, the big question is: what is this entirely new, fluid reality and how can I flow with it, adapt to it and process It?
Some possibilities may be:
Identify your narrow filters, biases and beliefs then make them more porous whilst putting solid ground under your feet allow the flood of rabid polemics, disinformation and orchestrated fear and uncertainty flow round you, not through you re-focus your goals to mirror your deepest values and get serious about the meaning you make of life gather your resources
Grow plants and herbs
Cook
Craft
Repair and mend take time away from 24 hour media propaganda
Smell the roses
Watch a sunset

Quote from Hare in the Moon Astrology

In the morning, from the first post onward, I felt the uneasiness from Facebook.

I diverted myself to dinosaurs instead. And found myself wanting to do coloured pencil on black paper instead. Experimenting with chalk-like lines.

It was fun the last time I did this was in Photoshop for this one:

http://guardienofthepyre.deviantart.com/art/Day-88-Zoea-316662576

Then Facebook stopped working for a while, and disconnected me towards making more things for the afternoon.

Day 17 - Getting to Know Dinosaurs

One of the unhelpful suggestions H had after an episode few months ago, was for me to start a project. The Logical Brain of course agreed. The Emotional Brain rejected the premise and was asking to be hugged and to be listened to instead. Low Self-Esteem said why bother, nothing I do was good enough anyway. Inspiration had nothing to add in that moment. Uterus was waiting to shed its lining before immersing itself in blanket-making, and not a moment before.

Guides were saying wait, rest, let go.

I was introduced to someone yesterday that is in search for dinosaur images. I offered.

At the rate I have been drawing today, I may have a few show-able designs by the weekend.

It's been a quiet whisper from the long-ago animals this year. A pack of dinosaur bath toys arrived for the baby along with all her other gifts. Power Rangers' first season has dinosaurs as power totems. And then while cleaning the shed I discovered a Tasmanian tiger and a glyptodon among the box of stuffed toys.

Time will tell if these sketches become part of a larger project, or add-up to more whispering from the past and take me in another direction.