Day 112 - Pacman Therapy

Felt much better today, and used yesterday's crazy as an inspiration for this one

Day 100!!!

Today's plan for day 100 was to go through the blog to collect up the themes and start phase 2 of this blog.

Universe had other plans.

A conversation with my subconscious lead me to sell my art tomorrow.

It started with completing this owl, as a give-away introduction to my drawings.

And that I need to have a few ready for sale for tomorrow's #Promotion day.

I suddenly made myself busy with the want to participate in Womanhood.

Day 79 - Abundance

Today I was contemplating abundance. This too, was easy to give thanks to all the stuff I have, the ability to cull and give away, and the space I have to store or have on display around the house. Give thanks to the abundance of water from last two days of rain, and the abundance of sunshine all day today. That I have enough to share with baby for her growth and well-being. That I have enough for my happiness.

3 minutes to midday, I finished my drawing task for today, which was an amazing feeling. Knowing I finished for the day I was able to nap with baby guilt-free in the afternoon.

Day #4 of 'I am perfectly enough.' I shared the concept with the Peach Tree mums and it looks like I have 'perfectly enough' buddies with me for the next few months.

Abundance has many forms and exploring them is great fun!

Day 78 - Joy

Today's focus was JOY. This one was easy to list what brought me joy. I also laughed a lot today, was productive with my drawings (did two!), had an enjoyable lunch with baby, and had the opportunity to Skype with my father.

I read a lot of other people's visualisation - interestingly most of the their happy places were by the sea. For the 'waves to wash away their worries.'

Lastly, I washed my hair tonight. Small gesture perhaps, but also an accomplishment to have my own 'washing away my worries' time.

Day #3 of seeing 'I am perfectly enough' on my phone.

Day 77 - Wholeness

Today's contemplation was on WHOLENESS. To me, wholeness feels like everything; completeness, and yet also the beginning, freshness. It is a feeling to feel into, and then expand from.

Anne suggested I twerk the "I am enough" alarm statement to "I am perfectly enough." So I have 99 more days of "I am perfectly enough" to look forward to several times a day.

As I was working at a cafe, a young man came up and asked about the page. He shared with me his works, and I was able to pass on convention information written by Megs Drinkwater. I wish him success!

Day 32 - Ass

Last night I flipped open a notebook to do some calming writing. Outpouring of recent frustrations resulted in this:

As a joke I shared the image with a thread encouraging to write a love letter to oneself. It had a reply that suggested adding "sexy" would make it a bit more positive. I immediately followed through.

The result made me smile so much I ripped the page out and stuck it on the bathroom mirror.

I also received an apology from one of the triggers for his behaviour. It's a small win.

Day 29 - Time Away

This was the 3rd weekend in a row I left the house without baby. Today's was a hard separation at first, baby in pain wanting lots of cuddles. That she still mainly relies on me for comfort means we are not yet ready to be parted for too long, few hours at most. In this context, putting me first means I have to entirely trust H that he will be ok. Where my trust of him is now has been a complete turn-around from a month ago.

This makes me be efficient at what I can do in this away 'me-time'; which also means cramming in a bit of 'necessities' into this short time frame. I put petrol in the car on the way to the shopping center today, for example.

Once inside the building I'm also aware that I can't browse the entire complex, which makes me be choosy of the shops and isles I dawdle in.

It's like a final relaxation before heading to Coffee Club to sketch a page for the day. This is when I can sit down uninterrupted bar the arrival of the ordered drink. For this I do the inspiration research before I leave home, have the references ready on my phone, and fully commit to the drawing for the day. Spontaneity of creativity, and discipline of research and application of skill, is just slightly displaced.

And I can go home feeling accomplished for the day.

Day 23 - Decision

"If you don't make a decision, that's the same thing as deciding that everything shall remain the same."

Receiving a message last night that the person does want to proceed with working with my art definitely concreted my intention to 'draw more,' and 'get to know dinosaurs'.

I also have been made aware that a small tablet is available for purchase at Aldi on Wednesday, that would be an excellent addition to start creating finished images digitally.

Day 22 - Make Colours Not War

This morning's adventuring took me to browsing the local mall, one of which was a bookshop. I did my usual rounds of the Arts, Animals, Religion, Humour, Self-care, Parenting. As a means of self-preservation, I turned all the titles indicating sleep training to face the back before I went into rage.

It seems that becoming a parent has made me appreciate quality of sleep over counting hours.

On the way out I took note of the colouring in books. It has become a very popular activity over this year. So vast is their selection they have an entire section dedicated to the publications. They had the 'specialty shelf' of the new publications, in front of the standard shelf. Down the bottom of the section over were some more books that didn't fit.

Colouring in books were invading the Military section.

I smiled that 'mindful colouring' were overtaking war history and weaponry reference.

Perhaps that is the way to world peace, if we all invested more in mindfully adding colour to our lives instead of hurting each other.