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Showing posts with label craft. Show all posts
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Monday, January 11, 2016

Day 83 - Rest Day

Most of yesterday was driving, stopping, looking at the map, wanting to give up many times, and finally getting to the destinations. Creating a beautiful vision board and spending time in a women's circle was worth all that. All the driving had worn me out and today I had a headache.

I experienced distance kinesiology for the first time this morning. The topic we focused on was the flashbacks. Tammie Irvine gave me some points to focus on to release for the next few days or as gently as my body allows. It turned out that the effect of the holding and visualisation was so profound that it increased the headache, felt light-headed, muscle tension, and all that.

Self-care included a bath soak with extra epsom salt, peppermint to the most tense areas, and some massage.

And a carrot, and an English muffin for dinner was enough.

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

Day 72 - Bleeding Day

Sometimes a state change happens because of external circumstances. In last night's case, it was a call from a cousin looking for a bed, as her planned accommodation didn't work out. It got me out of my slump, and she was a brief but great company as she settled for the night and before she left in the morning.

However the bleed flow remained just as fierce, with still no appetite and dizzy spells.

H tried to look after me and baby as he noticed. I eventually retreated to bed to crochet horizontally, and finished another square.

Meanwhile baby teeth issues and short temper continued. Tried the numbing gel applications, frozen carrots, cold chamomile tea, lots of cuddling a try, to see which one she was in the mood for at the time.

I also was able to finally connect with dad on Skype; numerous times, as if to catch up with the missed conversations while we were away and he was sick.

Sunday, November 29, 2015

Weekend Holiday (Brisbane)

H decided it was in his best interest not to make the effort to go home after his work Christmas party. He booked us a hotel room closest to the venue, which was in the City Hall, and made a short holiday out of it. It was an opportunity for both of us to find things we had not seen or done in a familiar and well-traveled environment.

In the morning to cater for his transport needs, I drove him to the station. As I took the bus in when I left, that solved the parking question.

I actually missed the bus I wanted to catch by a few minutes, so instead of waiting in the sun for the next hour, I returned home and put some extra things in the bag. Even with this opportunity I forgot the hotel itinerary and the bank details, that I only remembered halfway there on the train already. However the concierge and H was fine with it and managed to get into the room before H finished work and then for him to pay when the extra key got picked up by him. It was a relief.

Planning worked out as such that a friend could come by at the same time H arrived walking from work. We all hung out together in the room until it was time for her to leave. She brought a Care Bear for baby's early Christmas present and we all had a good time watching her explore this new thing. H got ready for his function, and I left to find food.

King George Square was packed with people there for the lighting of the Christmas Tree. I was more interested in looking for somewhere I had not eaten at or from, so I made my way through the crowds to Queen Street Mall. It was an especially popular Friday night with long queues for many places, I ended up in a Night Owl ordering a toasted sandwich and a coffee, as "I had never been to that particular one before." I headed back towards the hotel thinking to continue baby's nap time peacefully. That of course did not happen as the carols on the loud speaker woke her up and she did not sleep until just before H came back. In the meantime she played on the bed, sometimes with the new bear, sometimes with the ball of yarn I was crocheting from. I found it hilarious how this little person could take up an entire queen-size bed.

H told me how he left the group after just 1 vodka shot, and also feeling anxious about a presentation that he got roped into for next year. I reassured him that it's not happening until next year so don't worry about it. I also recounted how I used to be very nervous about oral exams and was a poor presenter, until I realised that if I could survive a black belt exam, a short speech on a well-researched topic was not such a big deal in comparison. That I enjoy public speaking now because of that realisation. He finally agreed that his black belt exam was grueling but survived in one piece, He was just glad he could be horizontal now instead of in an hour's time.

The headache from the previous day subdued to background issue for the entire day, which made things run more smoothly than I had imagined and was worried about.

Saturday morning we ended up at the hotel's restaurant for a buffet breakfast. We reminisced our honeymoon trip's breakfasts, how delicious they were, except for that one place with ham-flavoured orange juice. We then strolled the mall before anything opened. Window shopping sans crowd.

I had to return back to the room to get my phone, to contact my friend to confirm our brunch at 10am. It was a great pick as H and I had never been to that cafe before. H was starting to get agitated that she was running late, going by the record that she had not arrived on time for her doula appointments earlier in the year. She is moving to Sydney in the new year so it was nice to catch up with her before her move. We also exchanged Skype details so she could see one of her assisted babies grow up on camera, like my dad does when he calls.

We strolled through Myer center and the aircon next. Baby napped on my back and unlike a backpack the weight is not easy to adjust. H had his turn at the display massage chair in the electronic section, and I watched in envy. I had my turn when he offered to put a coin in for a 5 minute paid one when we sat at one and I took baby off onto the couch where she dosed for a few more minutes before the posture got uncomfortable enough to wake her.

For the rest of the afternoon, after the cleaner had left, and I had a shower and baby had a sponge down on the basin, all three of us napped for 3 solid hours. I forgot to mention to please replace the milk we used up so that was the end of having coffee until we got back home. I also dripped blood all over some of the towels which I felt bad about, and got baby's poo on top of it for a nappy change, which erased my guilt. The bath mat got flipped over instead.

One of the popular places I noted the previous night was a dumpling specialty restaurant that had opened while I had not visited the city. Harajuku Gyoza had an obnoxiously friendly and fun atmosphere. One table ordered sake shots and the wait staff encouraged the whole shop to cheer for them. The meal was delicious, baby munched on edamame husks and the black serviettes (which made it look like she ate nori), and fried Nutella and banana gyoza with ice-cream a memorable desert. The kind of place mum would have hated for being loud and immature, both in decor and volume.

We returned to the room for the last time for the day. H discovered the Sound of Music on TV, from the Lonely Goatherd puppetry scene. It was on for the 50th Anniversary special. Watching the movie while commentating on scenes from places we visited in Saltzberg and the tour, as well as the World War II memorials, gave the story a fresh perspective.

Sunday Morning I woke at 6.30 and H woke from my rustlings. Baby on the other hand took much encouraging to wake up, but it also meant we could pack most of the bags before leaving for breakfast. We decided on a place from around the block. Unfortunately a place that was short-staffed and one of two only places open for trading, we got our meals but we had to leave before our drinks arrived. There was no need to add to our frustration of watching other people that arrived after us get served before us. Then it was just a matter of going back to the room to picking up our luggage, checking out, and heading for the station. For some reason the trains were only running once an hour instead of every half-hour, we had McDonalds orange juice as coffee substitute while we waited. It worked out at the other end though as the bus to get home left just as we got on it.

The timing was also great that about an hour later it rained for a little bit, and then storm came at night. Traveling is better in sunny weather than wet.

I finally got the coffee I wanted at night as we got a new bottle of milk for our groceries.

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

Day 46 - Diverting from Global Dramas (With Art, of Course)

I went to bed last night with this thought, as it one of the last things to have read.
Tuesday 24 November 2015
"Not until we are lost do we begin to find ourselves" Thoreau.
Tomorrow's Full Frost Moon in Gemini is a close encounter of the 3rd kind moment. It is broadcasting on multiple radio frequencies, some too etheric to hear, others coming in and our of your awareness like voices from the Tower of Babel. This Moon is speaking in tongues, in visions, in ancient languages you barely remember and in the codes of the far future. With the Sun aligned with Saturn, Mercury, Neptune and Nessus; the Moon with Jupiter and the Node of Fate and Venus on the Uranus/Pluto square, the big question is: what is this entirely new, fluid reality and how can I flow with it, adapt to it and process It?
Some possibilities may be:
Identify your narrow filters, biases and beliefs then make them more porous whilst putting solid ground under your feet allow the flood of rabid polemics, disinformation and orchestrated fear and uncertainty flow round you, not through you re-focus your goals to mirror your deepest values and get serious about the meaning you make of life gather your resources
Grow plants and herbs
Cook
Craft
Repair and mend take time away from 24 hour media propaganda
Smell the roses
Watch a sunset
In the morning, from the first post onward, I felt the uneasiness from Facebook.

I diverted myself to dinosaurs instead. And found myself wanting to do coloured pencil on black paper instead. Experimenting with chalk-like lines.

It was fun the last time I did this was in Photoshop for this one:

Then Facebook stopped working for a while, and disconnected me towards making more things for the afternoon.

Sunday, October 25, 2015

Day 15 - Menarche Rituals

My bleed returned 6 month after birthing. Although surprised that it came back so soon, I was also missing performing some rituals during the time. By the time menarchy restarted, I had began to accumulate some ideas about how to honour this girl-child's growth into womanhood.

I have no recollection of my first bleed, nor a diary record. Mum bought me pads, lamented how underwear with extra lining were not available for purchase, and got cross at me often for leaving the used liners in the bathroom. Menstruation, aside from during the occasional sex education, was only ever mentioned when skipping swimming lessons, as a lie or as a truth.

I only became interested in it in 2010 during Womanhood run by the Women's Wellbeing Association, after years of bleeding unconsciously. Now living the 4 seasons is an important aspect of loving my own body.

When my bleed returned, I began crocheting and knitting. If I can do at least one square each bleed, I will have enough for a blanket by the time baby has her first bleed. I have yet to decide whether it will be a complete blanket or a stash of squares I gift her. It's almost a decade away before I need to decide.

For now, making little squares has become part of an important care ritual to add to the bath soaks, using cloth pads, giving the blood to the earth, and plenty of resting.

I declined on the invite to attend WWA's annual Gathering this weekend. While the Period Tracker app informed me that I was due end of next week, in time for the monthly circle meetings, it feels very appropriate that this cycle's started yesterday. My body has yet to reestablish its rhythm.

Tuesday, October 20, 2015

Reclaiming - Day 10

Today's task asked to make a list of questions to wake up to every morning.

While I already had been keeping the questions mentioned in Day 1 and Day 8, they are either a direct quote from someone or a re-imagined version of them. I spent the day coming up with my own personalised power questions.

- What new experiences will I have today?
- Who will I share my inspiration with today?
- What will I create today?
- What will I be inspired by today?
- What will I be most excited about today?

I wonder...

Incidentally I made a rattle out of a plastic bottle since the baby seem to like the object so much.

Thursday, October 15, 2015

Reclaiming - Day 5 (Thankful Thursday!)

To be present in one's integrity to appeal to another's integrity is the quickest way to heart connection.

As a result of yesterday morning's conversation, H came home more committed, created some goals in regards to things that were on his mind, and followed through on being a father. This in turn gave me the space I had been asking for of uninterrupted me time, an enjoyable meal, and to face baby's bedtime without feeling lonely. Listening to their interactions was joyful. When baby began her hungry whines they didn't feel so urgent, but rather, I could empathise and tell her it's only a few more minutes away. I felt my boundaries were respected.

This morning I found this gem of a post from Kylie Stretton the Mummy Motivator:
Finding You Tip 7: SELF-LOVE AND ACCEPTANCE 
As the old saying goes, if you cannot love yourself, you cannot truly love another. When you love and accept yourself fully you do not need anyone else to fulfil those needs within you. So give yourself the love and acceptance you deserve. Think of the little child within you, and take care of that child as though it were a living, breathing soul - because it is! Don't criticise or blame or admonish. Instead, accept yourself exactly as you are: a perfect, complete and worthy human being. When you approve of yourself the changes around you happen immediately. You will see that you live in a more positive and loving world. The external change is a manifestation of the internal change - all this change comes from within you! ‪
Keeping with the theme of caring for the inner child, I decided to do a small craft project to upgrade my Gratitude Jar. I must confess it had been sitting there collecting dust instead of gratitude notes for a few years. I also finally knew what I wanted to do with the large coffee jar I had been saving for inspiration to hit.

I read through all the notes in there and added a few more from this week's memos. The notes mentioning aircon and fans and cool breeze under the shade especially made me smile in this current warm weather.

I declare today Thankful Thursday.


*Kylie's book Finding Kylie will be available for purchase from late November.