Day 44 - Introduction Page (and Appreciation)

Nap times have gotten easier now that I can back-carry baby. Boobing her to sleep has confined me to the couch, although it is sometimes nice to sleep with her. Front carry naps, which is what we do while out, has become increasingly awkward because of her bulk, and limited my movement and the strength to carry larger items (and dropping food crumbs on her head). Back carrying means I can be mobile in many more ways.

During the first nap, once mobile tasks were done, I sat at the laptop to write my introduction. It's more of a backstory than what I said in my first entry.

I tried to condense it and only catch the key points.

I realised that my parents were doing the best they could at that time. There is a quote that goes, "Your time of blaming your parents have expired." I thank them for giving me a fantastic childhood full of great memories and photo opportunities.

I am thankful for the school library for giving me space. It is where I first came across occult literature. I am thankful for my friends during that time. I am thankful for the 'good' education, the kind I can write in my resume alongside my accomplishments.

I am thankful that I kept questioning. I am thankful for all the knowledge and inspiration I've acquired through my studies.

I am thankful for mum's challenges, as growing into her support person (not quite 'carer') has strengthened my character. That I don't have to do things the way she did things, and also I can choose for myself which of her 'things' I want to pass onto my child.

I am thankful that technology has finally caught up with the way I like to communicate (video calling, instant messaging), that it has opened up avenues to have a relationship with dad.

I am thankful for H's contributions, especially that I can be a stay-at-home mum like I had wanted to. That I now have time to reflect all the time and write this blog. That I'm moving towards what I originally left work to do.

I am thankful for the support I am receiving now. Some of these people I met because of a chance meeting, others through introduction, and a few I don't even remember the exact moment of accepting Friend request on Facebook.

I am thankful for this child coming into my life. I am challenged by her challenges and enjoy her enjoyments. Possibly everything every mother has said ever about her child, that doesn't need to be repeated here.

Lastly I am thankful to my readers, that I have received feedback on how much they enjoy reading my posts. Or that they can relate to the latest episode of my dramas. Or that they are inspired by an activity. When I tag people from whom I had been inspired by, they reply with words of encouragement. That people are clicking on the link at all, and I see the statistics rise, which gives me a self-confidence boost.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart.